Sometimes the things that happen to us in life are not easily sorted. Negotiating our pain and learning to live with it and put it in its place can be hard because everyone is different . We know that we believe in a God of grace and that forgiveness is freely available to both give and receive but sometimes it’s just really hard to even start to unearth the root cause of our internal pain and begin to fully live again .
Why ? When giving and receiving forgiveness  which some say is maybe the simplest of things, we wrestle with a barrage of human feelings and expectations and what if’s and although maybe not severe, it is none the less precariously balanced as we negotiate our human and spiritual internal  landscape. Sometimes it’s just a process of God allowing the trickle of pain to allow us to begin the process. We know are stuff but maybe need to speak out more and acknowledge our need to release the things that bind us , and allow others to help us in this process . 

Jesus’ prerequisite for being forgiven by God is simply to forgive one another. . . . Jesus said we will receive the forgiveness of God to the degree that we can be conduits of forgiveness for one another. In other words, forgiveness is of one piece. Those who give it can receive it. Those who receive it can give it. If we’re in the conduit of love, if we’re in the ocean of mercy, frankly, it’s the only thing that makes sense.

Brian McLaren states “One of my friends years ago said to me (we were both pastors), “Brian, I think the biggest challenge that we pastors [face] is whether we want to be better than we appear or appear better than we are.” He said, “I’m really trying to make it my goal to be better than I appear, but it’s such a temptation.” . . . 

Being a leader is so tough, humans are quick to loan and judge and there is a fine line between protecting ourselves whilst being as real and transparent as we can. 
People want Simone to look up to and lead but pedestals are dangerous as they can be pre stupidly balanced on there at times. 
So maybe grounding is key , starting the day before God knowing that we are a sinner saved by grace is good and so is having a good friend to hold you to account.

I love that Pope Francis’ first public talk when he was elected, this strange bishop from Argentina, they said, “Who are you?” The first words out of his mouth were, “I’m a sinner.”

What a great example of leadership and honesty. 
Taken from

Richard Rohr’s Daily Meditation

From the Center for Action and Contemplation

Why did Jesus talk about accepting the Kingdom of Heaven like a child ? Isn’t life and eternal perspective far simpler through the eyes of a child ? And so illuminating ? Why do we make it so complicated?

Purity of heart is important in having the ability to receive the good news like a child . It’s about being close to God and to do that we have to relinquish the part of us that feels important and knowledgeable as a grown-up and turn in a state of not-knowing to God. . .that way God can use us and work in us . So questioning is good ! Don’t children ask why all the time? If we Comin tie to question and seek God maybe we will get some answers?